New year, new beginning.

Hi,

      Wishing you all a happy new year! it's 2015! 2014 was a crazy and memorable year for me, the ups and downs of life that I thought I won't be able to get through, but here I am still breathing, heart's still beating not for someone else but for myself. I know I didn't give up and I did my best, but this new year I'm gonna do better and look at 2014's failures and success as my inspiration. But I can't go back, there's no turning back because everything that was in the past should stay in the past. To those who have cause my downs in 2014, I would like to say thank you and sorry if ever I did the same thing, you guys are great! Now to those who have cause my ups in life thank you, you guys are of course great! Thank you for those experience that led me to grow into someone better, without you, there's no today. So let's end this year with a bang! let us forgive and love because 2015 is knocking our door and saying "time to move on".

                                                                                                                         Yours Truly,
                                                                                                                         Albert Bernas

To our little dog

I wish I still have the chance to play and accompany you whenever I'm home. I wish I can still let you out of your cage, so that you can roam around my room or anywhere you like inside our house. I wish I can still use that laser pointer flashlight type of thing, so that you can chase it down trying to catch the red dot. I wish I can give you dog food as you chew it happily. I wish I can always come home tired and see you right there waiting for someone to give your time with. I wish I can wake up every morning and see you right there just staring. I wish I can still hear your annoying bark because you want to play with me or you're hungry and asking for food. I wish you can still listen to whatever nonsense I'm saying to you as if you'd understands me. I wish you can still watch me dance like crazy when no one is watching except you. I wish you're still here so that I won't feel lonely, but I feel bad because you're the one who felt lonely last night. I wish you have more time in our family. I regret that day I let you out of your cage to let you roam around and saw you with something in your mouth that wasn't supposed to be in there and because of that you got sick. I regret not spending more time with you and I regret not being there with you in your last day. I feel so guilty that this happened please forgive me and seeing you there lifeless and not moving really broke my heart. I wish you're still alive. I wish you're still here.

Feeling dull or empty

          Have you ever had this feeling of emptiness or dullness inside you? I believe everyone does at some point of their life. Sometimes we do question about life or certain things that  has or might happen to us and sometimes it just want to make us give up. Don't worry I believe it's normal, we're human after all right? oh! that wasn't supposed to be a question because yes, we are human, we have feelings, emotions, freedom to think and speak. So now you might be thinking and be telling yourself "why is the this blogger saying all of these?" Pardon me for saying too much but I just want to say that life's sometimes full of questions as we know and allow me to share my short experience. I had this experience recently of staying in my room alone not knowing what to do and feeling uninspired to do anything and felt so miserable of what's happening to the point that I feel like I'm physically and mentally unable to cope up with my situation, and I believe I wasted precious time there, yeah you read that right "precious time". Precious time to start over again, precious time to continue and move forward.

          You might be reading this because deep down inside, you know you have problems, you're either sad, confused, angry, alone, rejected, cheated or betrayed. But I'll tell you this, don't give up. No one told you it was easy and no one told you that life will be as you think it will be. Life's full of surprises and adventures! Get off your ass and find what you're meant to do or what makes you feel happy and fulfilled. Let go of the things that binds you to your past or else you'll not be able to move forward. I always like this quote by Albert Einstein(not me haha), he quoted "Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving." I will be really honest here, as of now December 11 2014 the day I published this blog post, I'm not really stable when it comes to my goal in life but I can say that I just keep on moving forward. If you feel like it's really hard then do it one step at a time and I can assure you that one day you'll reach your goal or you'll know what you want in life. If you're just gonna sit your ass at home and eat pop corn or ice cream while watching series or movies then I'm gonna tell you that it will take longer and you'll find yourself in an infinite loop of having to do the same thing again and again till you wear out. hola! "Infinite Loop" just reminds me of something. But really, be like riding a bicycle because one day you'll realize that riding the same path again and again will eventually get you bored. So be like riding a bicycle keep moving forward but if you fall down, stand up pick up your bike to start again and continue your adventurous life while it's not too late. So never GIVE UP unless there's really nothing to fight for anymore.



Here's me enjoying my bike ride, yeah I look small but it's just the picture! hope you guys get to find what you're happy doing. :)

Parents

Ever felt so angry when they always tell you what you should do in your life? or the frustration because they always call you to do something for them? even though you're not the only son/daughter in the family?
If your answer is yes, then I suggest you to continue reading. Don't worry because my answer is also yes and I've been going through a lot recently and I'm sure even for the future days to come so I'm definitely with you on this.

Now let's take a look at the situation that you're in and let us try to look at the positive side of it, let us start with the future that our parents want for us. Why do they always want to intervene on what we want to do or our dream in life? answer is simple, they want us to do something for the betterment of our life in the future, because they have been through a lot more than us and they know what it felt like to be unfortunate or fortunate. Moving on to when they always call you to do something for them, I know that it's really frustrating but I believe they also have a reason as to why it is always you, it's because you're the one that they can rely on or capable to do something. Isn't it something that should uplift us?

Yes, I know that we should follow our dream, but I believe that we should also think for our parents because hey, they're not here forever and they have sacrificed a lot for you and we should be thankful for that. Don't get me wrong, I'm not telling you to not follow your dream, what I'm saying here is you can follow your dream but at the same time think about their future too because in the future it's your turn to take care of them and feed them. No matter what happens, parents is parents and they have the same blood as yours, so love them as much as you can and don't wait for that day that you will be surprised that time passed so fast and you regret everything that you didn't do for your parents. I know that not every parent is doing what they should, so why not start it with yourself? because life goes on and one day you'll be the parent and you'll understand everything and then pass it to the next generation. Thank you for reading, God bless you and I'll pray for you.